The Tharandt forest - emotions

(The Tharandt forest - delicacy)

Was at the Museum, an exhibition of samples of roots, seeds and stems with unique settings, plus an exhibition of dendrochronology, the study of old trees. I had an emotional shock to see the viewing logs for records of growth rings of different species of trees and even radial samples of wood taken by auger Haglöf increment because all this was part of my doctoral research topic. In the photo, you can see my spell look and sadness.
Who does not carry within it the sadness of what was not realized? I do not say frustrated because frustration is "product" of unrealized expectations, and I never had expectations, but hope.
What can I learn his lesson to heart this situation that life has imposed to me? What are the reasons I did not deserve or was not able to fulfill this task? I still want an answer.
It was Sunday, we were a family, after a refreshing cup of Caffè Latte, we went into the forest.
It was time to remember a past studies and forestry work, a time I wanted to have a family. I was on the other side of the past, it was this time, next to my husband and our beloved son. The duality of emotions caused me agitation.
I collected some seeds, pine cones and branches, to try to do something like the decoration of the museum in our apartment.